I just got done reading a book called "Choke". Very good book. I just got done reading a short poem/story called "Things Happen for a Reason". Very good poem/story. Now what does it have in common? These two phrases:
"We can spend our lives letting the world tell us who we are.
Sane or insane.
Saints or sex addicts.
Heros or victims.
Letting history tell us how good or bad we are.
Letting our past decide our futures.
Or we can decide for ourselves.
And maybe it's our job to invent something better." - Chuck Palahniuk
Sane or insane.
Saints or sex addicts.
Heros or victims.
Letting history tell us how good or bad we are.
Letting our past decide our futures.
Or we can decide for ourselves.
And maybe it's our job to invent something better." - Chuck Palahniuk
"You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets." - Have no friggin clue
I have been stuck on what i am doing out here in Virginia. It's not a feeling that I don't know if I belong here. But it's a feeling of what I am going to do out here. There is soo many things that I feel that come and tend to haunt me from my past. Makes me feel like I am falling back into the things i wanted to run from. But like these stories suggest, screw what your past is. Screw what happened before. Just screw it. Make something new. Be someone new. But still be me of course.
When I moved out here I was thinking maybe I could get people start calling me a more grown up name. Like Robert. Or at least Rob or Robby. Couldn't do it. Dang it... I am Bobby. Can't change that much. Tried to stop being such a spaz at time. Couldn't do that. Not enough Ritalin in this world.
So what am I doing you ask? Definitely not running. I know what I want in life and I am going to work hard to figure out if it's the right thing or not. Take life as it comes. I don't want to run into it head first, but I am taking things as they come along, just as long as I know where I want to go.
Well that's enought about that. Another interesting thing I thought about the while reading the book Choke was, why can't I be someone's savior? Frank, I want to be deity. Then I thought how does that happen?
First I need to have scriptures...
Book of Jack Chapter 1 Verse 3 "And Bobby said let there be light, took out a match and held the candle high."
Now I just need to have people believe.
Book of Haneda Chapter 2 Verse 21 "And in that day that you believe in Him and accept Him, you will be numbered with the ones that need the therapy."
Frank, do you believe I can be a savior of some sort? Now don't get me wrong. I am not saying I am the savior of souls. No no no... never would claim that. But a savior of something. Great thing about it, just like Vincent Mancini, they can decide what i save them from. Let them bring there burdens to me. I will be their savior from the stupid things of life. Like Vincent, I kicked your cat out the window... Yes I wiped chocolate cake all over the toilet seat to make you feel sick... Yes I hid the viagra in the dog food.
Frank can I be your savior? Tell me something... Tell me anything that is bothering you that you could never figure out... And then yes, I was the one who did that. I am sorry... I fed your hamster the alka seltzer and I feel bad.
Later dude,
Jack
When I moved out here I was thinking maybe I could get people start calling me a more grown up name. Like Robert. Or at least Rob or Robby. Couldn't do it. Dang it... I am Bobby. Can't change that much. Tried to stop being such a spaz at time. Couldn't do that. Not enough Ritalin in this world.
So what am I doing you ask? Definitely not running. I know what I want in life and I am going to work hard to figure out if it's the right thing or not. Take life as it comes. I don't want to run into it head first, but I am taking things as they come along, just as long as I know where I want to go.
Well that's enought about that. Another interesting thing I thought about the while reading the book Choke was, why can't I be someone's savior? Frank, I want to be deity. Then I thought how does that happen?
First I need to have scriptures...
Book of Jack Chapter 1 Verse 3 "And Bobby said let there be light, took out a match and held the candle high."
Now I just need to have people believe.
Book of Haneda Chapter 2 Verse 21 "And in that day that you believe in Him and accept Him, you will be numbered with the ones that need the therapy."
Frank, do you believe I can be a savior of some sort? Now don't get me wrong. I am not saying I am the savior of souls. No no no... never would claim that. But a savior of something. Great thing about it, just like Vincent Mancini, they can decide what i save them from. Let them bring there burdens to me. I will be their savior from the stupid things of life. Like Vincent, I kicked your cat out the window... Yes I wiped chocolate cake all over the toilet seat to make you feel sick... Yes I hid the viagra in the dog food.
Frank can I be your savior? Tell me something... Tell me anything that is bothering you that you could never figure out... And then yes, I was the one who did that. I am sorry... I fed your hamster the alka seltzer and I feel bad.
Later dude,
Jack
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